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Archive for May, 2007


Deke is an unexpected surprise…..at 40….yikes….but like his shirt says….I dig him….like way….

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this picture was taken by my friend Jessica Grady……it’s amazing to me that I have a 20-year-old and a one year old…..now how did that happen……oh yeah….i remember….sigh

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I had a fabulous Mother’s Day….we also celebrated Davis’ birthday and Daley’s…..i luv my guyz…..so much!!!!

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Davis’ Birthday

Davis

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Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at PhotobucketI write this to you, Daley Hake, my firstborn son…..There is something unique about being the first….don’t you think…..your brothers love to tease me by saying you’re my favorite…..not so….it is impossible in my mind and heart to have favorites….each of you has a unique story…..today it is about yours….I don’t know if you know this…..but you have saved my life twice…..the first time….the day you were born…..the second is for another blog someday…..You were suppose to be born….according to that silly thing doctors call a “due date” (which is an absolute farce) on the 25th of April….but as ususal….you were late…..FYI….being late really sucks when you’re pregnant for reasons I know you don’t want to hear…..I’ll keep going….smile….the 27th rolled around and you still weren’t here…..but that day, however, changed my life….and looking back on it…..it changed how I would eventually parent you. The afternoon of the 27th, I found out that my only brother was killed….in a horrible car accident….less than a mile from where we lived…..you were the only one with me that day….when I found out…..and as i screamed and cried out to God…..you squirmed and kicked….and I realized….for the first time….that you not only would bring me much joy, you also had the potential to bring me incredible sadness…..It never occured to me….that something could happen to you…..and it scared the hell out me. The days that followed were some of the most painful of my life…..and after I buried my brother…..you, then, decided to come. People say you forget the pain of labor…..I am here to tell you….it isn’t so….I REMEMBER…..but what I can say is that after many, many, many hours of labor…. you entered this world and when they placed you on my tummy and you looked up at me…..it didn’t matter….the pain….fear….time stood still….you were beautiful…..and rather large I might add….over nine pounds…..and after everyone had left…..you and I had a little talk….I told you I would take really good care of you….but there was no way I was gonna give you my heart….I had seen the agony of what my parents were going through…..the risk to love you was too great….what if something happened to you…..how would I survive……I can tell you that the battle in my heart and mind that night lasted all of about one minute…..cuz, man, I fell madly in love with you….and from that night to twenty years later…..I still can’t believe your mine…..you stole my heart and I have never, ever been the same…..so how did you save my life? You were God’s blessing to me in a time when my heart ached…..you made sense out of a senseless death…..you made me laugh when I wanted to cry…..you made me get up when all I wanted to do was stay in bed and cry……you gave me hope in what seemed a hopeless situation….but mostly…..you’ve taught me that the risk to love you was well worth it…..You’re taller than me now…..and your the same age I was when I found out I was pregnant with you…..freaky….isn’t it? I was so young when I had you….I didn’t know what I was doing….I still don’t half the time….but this one thing I know for sure…..for all the mistakes I’ve made with you…..the stupid things I’ve said…..the times I’ve hurt your feelings….embarrassed you….you are the first of six of the greatest gifts God every gave me and I will spend the rest of my days thanking Him for allowing me to be your mom…..and just so you know…..i love you more!!! P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DALE

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