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I Blog, Today, With A Grateful Heart…..

Last night I received that dreaded call that all parents hope they will never get……thankfully……the call came from my son and not the police……he was at least talking to me…..”Mom, I’m ok….don’t worry…..but I’ve been in a car accident”……Let me just say that……”don’t worry” and “car accident” don’t belong in the same sentence……

At midnight, the 40 minute drive to Fullerton lasted forever…..and many things went through my mind…..the very first time I ever layed  eyes on my beautiful baby Dylan……his incredible blue eyes……the way he laughs……his smile……my last conversation with him at 10:15…..an hour before the accident……the fact that he is so much taller than me now…….how he’s the only one of my sons who calls me woman…..instead of mom…….that he is 18 now…..the same age my brother was when he was killed in a horrible car accident…..how for the last few months I have struggled not to worry everytime he drives away…..reliving the past…..yet not wanting to be a slave to it…..the fact that his middle name is “Jesse”….after my only brother…..named in honor of a great, great guy…..who would have absolutely loved all my sons…….and then GRATEFULNESS……extreme gratefulness……that I was on my way to pick him up…..not the hospital or morgue……that his two friends were not hurt……that only Dylan’s knee was banged up……..GRATEFUL that the air bags worked……but mostly, so grateful that God protected him…..and that he is home with me again……safe……I can hear his music blarring out in the garage……all is well……Thank You Father God…..that I have another day with my son…..thank you for the reminder that life is so precious and way too short……and that we need to make the most of everyday that we have on this journey…..

To my Rob, anchor, soul-mate, friend, incredible father to ALL my sons…..thank you for your calming spirit…..thank you for always bringing your love, humor, and peace into every situation…..God knew what He was doing when He brought you to us…..we all love you so much…..

My Dylan……you are the “love of my life”……you will never “get” the love I have for you until you have a “love of you life”…..for your own……I know how bad you feel…..today when you had to answer all those questions from the insurance adjuster……I saw for the first time….you are becoming a man…..and along with that comes responsiblity…..consequences……etc…..I know you feel horrible about the car…..but it’s just a car…..your life is priceless……I LOVE YOU DJ…….

Dustin & Davis….thanks for holding down the fort last night…..for watching out for your little brothers…..and for the worry I saw in your eyes for you older brother……I love you both so much!

My homeless Nashville boy…..thanks for you texts……for your offer to help out financially……for being you…..can’t wait till you get home……

So……I AM THE LUCKIEST WOMAN ALIVE……how many women can say they are surrounded by seven men……of differeing ages……who love and put up with this girl….God is Good!!!

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LIFE WITH BOYZ….

We have a lot of unfinished projects going on at our house…..one of them is the laundry room floor, unfinished garden, painting the inside (I have two different color splotches on some of my walls that I am trying to decide on) and the OUTSIDE of our home badly needs a coat of something……plus our side yard is not quite done yet to name just a few. We did just use our tax return to get my beloved french doors put into our dining room…..so exctited….I’ve waited a while for those……

So here’s the constant battle living with all men….they don’t share my vision of a clean house….not perfect….like when I was in my 20s & 30s……I’ve given up on that one……just clean. So here’s the deal when they invite someone over…..CLEAN YOUR BATHROOM AND BEDROOM……please……I’ve been after them for dayz to please clean their shower……and……everyone has, basically, nicely, ignored my request. So Dustin invited a couple of guyz over yesterday and they were going to go to the skate park and then hang out here and spend the night, which left him with the shower issue:)

By the way, in case you’re not in the know….. we live in a 1500 sq. ft. home…..with three bedrooms and a half-converted garage for the older boys. It means everyone shares a room and we are always in one another’s grill in some way, shape or form (it’s a little crowded). But it’s what we could afford and it’s more than I had 10 years ago when I lost everything in my divorce (and its not an apartment, thank you Lord).

Back to my story…..so, yesterday, we had a bunch of running around to do, left Dylan in charge, and took off while Deke was down for a nap and Daeden was watching a movie. When I came home, the shower was clean. They were all laughing and acting stupid about the whole thing (like boyz do when they’ve done something, not neccesarily bad, but you know what I mean) ….but, hey, it was clean, right? Dylan said, check out my blog and you’ll see what I’m talking about…..and here’s what I saw. After I stopped laughing…..I thought…..that’s a pretty dog-gone good idea……that shower is a pain in the butt to clean….which is why everybody shucks the buck about doing it……Thanks Dustin…..I pass the torch onto you…..You are now the official shower/hoser/cleaner…….:) He nicely replied, “Yeah, right”. Little does he know…….I’m still the boss!

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Spaghetti Face……

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12 more days until this little guy turns the “Big 2″……

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